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Sometimes I have illusion on how I would injure myself.
How I would fall down the stairs.
How I would sprain my ankles.
How I would trip and fall down.
How I would meet an accident.
How I would cut myself.
How I would bang myself to the wall.

Sometimes it came true, but more often than it did not.
I think I am blessed to have such illusion.
At least I will be extra careful when I walk.
At least I can try to minimize the injury.

I have sprained my ankle for so many times, until I am an expert for it.
I know the best way to minimize the damage.
I know how to angle my body so that I can minimize the damage.
I know how to balance my body so that I will not fall down ugly.

I do not know why I am writing this.
I just feel that I need to write something to ease my mind.
Confusion, anger, disappointment, burdened, joy; all kind of mixture feelings are bothering me.

Confusion: Everything around me has turned around. What has happened?

Anger: Everybody should be responsible to what they did. Running away will not solve anything. Threatening your poor parents definitely not the best solution.

Disappointment: If we have not communicated, we wouldn’t know how much things that you have lied to us. YOU told me that you will do it nicely, liar.

Burdened: I am sick of doing what I am forced to do. Responsibilities have started to pressure me. So much so that I do not know how to reject. Not that I ever master in it.

Joy: Finally I have received my early confirmation. It is one and half month in advance. Actual increment still pending for discussion tomorrow.

Wish me luck on everything! Speedy mental recovery, good increment and etc.

Yiruma

I just renewed almost all my songs in my blog to Yiruma’s songs (except the second song, it is “The Promise” by Secret Garden). His songs are so wonderful. Maybe it is because I always love piano, and so I found that almost all of his songs are able to touch my heart. For those of you who also love music, you may want to take a time off and enjoyed the music.

Here is some little facts on him, hope that it will help you to know a little bit more about him.

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Yiruma is a South Korean pianist and composer. He is well-known throughout the world, and his albums are sold all over Asia, as well as the United States and Europe. His best-known pieces are "River Flows in You", "Love Me" both of which appear on the album "First Love" (2001), and "Kiss the Rain" from the album "From the Yellow Room" (2003).

He lived in Osaka, Japan, for six years, and then entered the Republic of Korea Navy in July 2006 to begin his two-year military service, which is compulsory for all male South Koreans.

Known for his many albums, Yiruma has not only composed for himself, but for many musicals, films, and for the theatre. He began playing the piano at the age of five, and moved to London when he was 11, in 1988, to study at The Purcell School of Music.

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If he is ever coming to Malaysia for his concert, just in case if I do not know about it, please inform me, I would really appreciate that. Now, who would like to sponsor me his album? XD

WTF

This is just an entry to release my anger on certain bastard. You may ignore it if you want.











I really hate assholes that are using sex as one of the break up excuses. Just because the girl refused to have sex with you in the past six years, and so you can be proud and sleep with other girls who can fulfilled your sexual needs. Oh please.

I do agree that sex can be important in a relationship, but it doesn’t mean that it is EVERYTHING. WTF do you mean when you will only give deadline until your birthday?! You think relationship is a business deal izzit? There is a deadline and if things are not done before the deadline then we will close the deal and leave. WTF.

You have no idea how heartbroken she is when she found out that you are out with other girls. And it is worse after she read your diary and reading you calling other people “baby”. And yet, you still firmly, calmly tell her that it is all her fault, it is her fault for not giving you what you want. What kind asshole are you?

Fine if you really need it so badly. Fine if you prefer to go for ONS. Fine if you have stopped loving her. Fine if you love someone else now. But can you stop playing with her emotion and tell her exactly what the current situation is. Rather than telling her that you still love her and yet you cannot together with her because you can foresee that there will be a lot of problems lying in front of you. Can you stop giving her false hope that she will be together with you again?! WTF.

And how dare you for telling her that you don’t mind together with her again but you will just be “playing” with her? Still love her huh.

Bastard.