23rd Birthday

My 23rd birthday is over, nothing much has happened in this year, especially when I compared with the past few years. This year, there isn’t even any birthday song. Luckily, I still received blessing and presents from a lot of my friends. Thank you everyone for your wishes and blessings. I truly appreciate it.

Thank you Voon Yin for your Japanese Dictionary, although I have stop learning it, I am sure that I will pick it up again one day. Thank you Carmen and Phuah for the body make up, although I am still not sure when to use it, I am definitely find a chance to use it one day. Thank you Say How for your Bear Handphone Hanger. Also, thank you Bao Bei for the wonderful seafood dinner and the self-made light.

The trip to Penang was fun. I have eaten a lot of good food. I ate so much that now I am feeling that I have put on a lot of weight. We went to a few places, such as the Fishermen Village, the beach, Gurney Drive, and of course not forgetting the DVD shopping at Batu Ferringgi.

It is really so fun to be able to spend time with your friends, especially when most of us have not meet up for so long, to be able sit down and spend time like this has already became a luxury among us. Since we graduated, everybody has own life and has followed different path of life. Voon Yin is now studying in Tanjung Malim and working towards teaching career. Jenn is studying her Master in Communications and juggling a few jobs at the same time. Jo has gone back to Penang and will be going off to UK for her Master next year. Such opportunities to gather together are getting lesser and lesser.

However, I must say that I am quite disappointed during this trip. When I depart, I took it as my birthday trip, a birthday trip that my best friends organized and gave to me. I didn’t want them to sponsor the trip, I know it is impossible. All I want is just a small birthday celebration with just a birthday song and maybe a small cake, which I didn’t get it all.

For the past few years, since we know each other, we have been spending each other birthday together. This is the first time that we are so far apart. Maybe when you grow older, birthday is no longer important, as it reminds you that you are growing older and older. Maybe a lot of girls hate birthday, but I am definitely not one of them. To me, birthday is a day that you are born. I always love friends’ birthday, because I am really thankful that they are born. Thanks their parents who gave them the life, so that I can know them now and enjoy every single moments with them.

Dance Club - "Pimp My Night"

Today is definitely going to be one of the most memorable nights during my working tenure in UTAR. As most of you guys would have known that I am leaving UTAR, my last day in UTAR would be next Monday. Tonight was “Talent Showcase 2009 - Pimp My Night", which was organized by Dance Club, PJ Campus. At the same time, this is also my last event/ project in UTAR.

During the preparation/ planning process, a lot of miscommunications happened among the committee. The committees were clearly not prepared for the event. Planning was not properly done. The committees were completely clueless about what they can do and what they should do. One point of time, I even considered to postpone the event. Thank god that the committees refused to do so, they insist to carry out the event as planned. Otherwise, I might feel regret for the rest of my life, for missing such a good show and killing their spirit and passion in doing this event.

I am not saying that they did a fantastic job. In fact I have seen some better events. However, with short time frame and committees who clearly were unsure of what to do, I would say that I am proud of the outcome tonight! Everybody put in their best effort in making this event a success, and I do think that it is a successful event!! For such a long time, I stop seeing PD011 full with people. Ever since most courses were transferred to other campuses, almost all events are facing the problems of getting audience, and today the hall was full. It was so full that people actually have not enough places to sit. They have to stand or sit on the table. It was just so encouraging and motivating!

This makes me regret on my decision for tendoring my resignation. I am really so happy working with all the students here, helping them during event was so tiring, yet so enjoyable. This is the kind of feeling that I might never get in other institutions, industries or other position.

Jo told me that I have to move on; maybe I will be able to see better and more wonderful things at the world outside. UTAR is always going to be one of the best memories in my life. My effort and contribution in UTAR will not come to a waste. At the end of the day, I will be able held my head high and says that I am proud of myself and I am proud of UTAR students. Because they are really a bunch of kids who are able to make the impossible into possible!

Sevanes has started working in PJ Campus, which means I can start counting down to my last day in UTAR.  Now, since Sevanes is already here, I think it is time for me to packing my things to handover to her.

I guess 1 month notice is a bit too long for me. It is so long that I have almost forgotten that I am leaving UTAR. Having pack workloads of course are also not helping.

Now, with the return of Mr. Deneish and presence of Sevanes, it kind of hit me hard in the head that I really have to go... It is time for me to move on... It is time for me to leave...

It was really fun for the past month and I really enjoyed myself. Thank you to all my colleagues who have been taking care of me. I really enjoyed being colleagues... and friends with you guys. It is definitely going to be one of the most memorable experiences in my life.

Confess

Not long ago, my long lost friend found me through Facebook. (I really feel that Facebook is a wonderful invention. It really does help you to find your old friends.) He is now facing some relationship problems and lacking of courage to confess.

I always tell people, "One person must always try not to leave any regrets in their life. A lot of times, chance only comes once. Once you missed it, you might not get it ever again in your entire life."

I know it is very difficult to make the first move. Even for me, it is very difficult. I may be able to show people what I am feeling; I may try my hardest to get closer to a person; I may attempt to make him interested at me; But, it would be too difficult for me to go forward and tell him exactly what I feel.

Maybe it would be easier if I am drunk.

However, if you never try, you will never know the end result. A lot of times, before they start doing anything, they will start to imagine. Instead of imagining good things which may happen, they will usually imagine the bad things. I think most people are just not so optimistic when it comes to relationship. However, things really might not be as bad as what they have imagined. In fact, once you have prepared yourself for the worst, nothing should be able to scare you anymore.

What is the worst thing that may happen after he confesses? The worst part is they may not be friends anymore. Of course he is definitely going to be really sad for losing a friend. However, look at bright side, after he takes some rest and move on, he will be able to find someone who will love him in return. Instead of wasting his time on someone who will not love him, isn’t it better if he can spend his time on someone better.

Sometimes, life is a gamble or we can also call it a choosing path. The way we choose may or may not have the result that we wanted. However, if we never choose/do anything, we will just be stuck here forever, without knowing how to move on.

Of course, courage doesn't come often. So, remember whenever you have the courage, move immediately, otherwise the courage may just go and you will miss the chance of clearing your doubts. Normally, second chance doesn’t come easily.

Dear friend, I don't know if you will be reading this entry, if you are, I sincerely hope that you will consider what I have just said now and yesterday seriously.

Rejected...

I was rejected for a translation job which I applied last week through Internet. :(

It is a job which I am supposed to translate proposals from English to Chinese. I spent so much effort and time in translating the trial copy. In the end, I was still rejected...

I am really disappointed with the outcome. I really thought it was not too bad and I will be accepted. I admitted that there are a lot of terms which I am unsure of what it called in Mandarin, but I have done several research through Internet to ensure that I get it right...

Maybe I was just too confident; Maybe I am just not cut for translation; Maybe I am not as good as I imagined.